|Posted on March 4, 2018 at 8:55 PM|
Not much has changed since I last wrote. Things just keep ebbing and flowing with the shifting sands of time. Life is always pushing us into situations we never saw coming and revealing to us things we never would have seen otherwise. It is with these thoughts that I ponder the title question. I have been receiving blessings on top of blessings and I wonder why? Did I do something to deserve them or is God just being his generous self? Those who don't believe in God would say I earned every single achievement. they would say that for all the good deeds I've done this is some kind of karma returning to me. I am not really into those thoughts one hundred percent but I do see how they seem relevant and believable.
I stated in the previous post that I stopped going to church. Well I also stopped reading my bible and to be totally honest, I hardly pray. I feel like in the eyes of the church, I should not receive one single blessing, even though most know we don't earn God's favor. Yet, I have been blessed. I have received God's favor and I do give Him all the credit. No one reads this blog anymore, I removed the subscribers, I don't promote this page like I used to, so it is now basically a journal to chronical my sprititual walk. So, I have nothing to gain by admitting to the blessings. I do remember a day these types of "testimonies" used to encourage people in the church. I used to share to show how God really does work in our lives. But I do not fellowship anymore. I don't talk about God with anyone anymore. I have no glory to gain. Thank you Lord for all that you still do in my life.
There are many trolls out there. out here on the internet so I will refrain from listing all that God has done. Just know that I still believe He loves me and has not taken his eyes off me. Remember, he lets the rain fall on the just and the unjust. Matthew 5:45.